This realization of more personal and positive
consequences is nurtured through the successful
narration, stories, and living examples that they
heard and observed at pesantren. It undoubtedly has
strengthened and motivated santri to regularly and
voluntarily perform khidmah. The positive impact of
khidmah is also believed by santri through the
process of indoctrination (kitab kuning/ religious
teachings) during their stay at pesantren. During the
indoctrination process, khidmah is thought to be
performed sincerely without hoping any mundane
rewards since the khidmah is solely dedicated to
please God. However, they are also believed that the
more sincere you are (in performing khidmah), the
more worldly benefit you will gain later. These
ambiguous internal and external factors have to
some extent influenced and formed the personality
of santri. This personality interestingly keeps
maintaining santri to perform khidmah in a sincere
way even though there is internal and personal urge
within themselves (at least in their notion and
consciousness).
In the perspective of Islamic spirituality
(tasawwuf), many sufi masters have agreed that road
to God will be experienced through two stages
(marhalah), i.e.: marhalah nafsiyyah, and marhalah
ruhiyyah. The first stage (marhalah nafsiyyah) is
more general than the second stage (marhalah
ruhiyyah), because it is including all salik—people
who are on journey for spiritual growth—including
zuhhad (ascetic people). While the second stage is
specified, it involves all salik, unless zuhhad. Sufis
interpreted struggle in the second stage as khidmah.
They considered that, marhalah nafsiyyah is
completed through the struggle which is committed
by nafs for liberating from rein of herein. While
marhalah ruhiyyah is completed through khidmah
committed by ruh (Sholih, 2012).
The point can be concluded is that the function
of ruh begins when the function of nafs has been
perfected. In the other words, khidmah begins in the
end of struggle committed by nafs. Furthermore, Al-
Manshuri said that, nafs covers ruh by its inclination
to physical universe (al-‘alam al-hissiy), therefore it
has to be trained by struggle (mujahadah) so that it
can be purified, until ruh can be liberated and
ascends through khidmah till reaching its genuine
highest position (Sholih, 2012)
Kyai realized the urgency of this struggle.
Therefore, kyai also acknowledged both sides of
human beings, that should be comprehended as soul
and body, both are interrelated to each other.
Physical behavior of human beings is a reflection of
their soul. Soul intensely determines human beings’
health. Obedience of santri toward their kyai or
pesantren program is sign of innerside of santri.
Kyai implicitly required reciprocal relation between
physical activities (dhohir) and esoteric activities
(bathin). This relation will be running well when the
intention owned by santri is sincerely for seeking
mercy of God.
A santri later, mostly will be forced by society
to give his or her contribution to them. Santri that
well-answer the challenges from society are those
who used to commit khidmah, because they will
have larger motivation and occasion to contribute to
satisfy requirements of society. In addition, khidmah
will give impact to environment where the actor of
khidmah living in the future, when he or she is
engaging with society. A person used to give service
to others would always try to make people around
him satisfied, it is natural sense of an altruistic
person. Only santri used to commit khidmah having
braveness to accept challenge of society around him
or her that has chance to become the special one, an
useful person. An useful person will be looked for
by people, it means he or she would has the greater
occasion to easily integrate into society and gain
bright future. But the point needs to notice is people
committing khidmah are required to commit it
sincerely. Sincerity has to be required by people
committing khidmah. People committing khidmah
are not allowed to hope gaining reward or feed-back
from khidmah they are committing. People
committing khidmah insincerely would not tend to
get anything. Therefore, they should organize their
intention.
A sincere person will tend to be liked by people
around him or her. This person would gain
opportunity to integrate his or herself into society
and work together with society. His or her existence
will be easily accepted by society. That’s all
meaning of statement that life of a sincere person
would be managed well by God. The essence of
useful person is making people happy. Therefore,
the point can be concluded is that an useful person is
a person that can make others happy. When a person
is happy because of other people, he or she will tend
to reward the other people who made him or her
happy.
When a kyai was satisfied, he will pray for
people that have made him satisfy, even because of
simply thing that made him satisfied. Therefore,
santri encouraged to commit any good thing that
they can do. Because they do not know which one of
good behaviours can make their kyai satisfies, they
must believe that the satisfaction of kyai will invite
the satisfaction of the Almighty.
People committing khidmah means that they
give what they possess for the benefit of others. The
point that should be noticed by people committing
khidmah is something behinds khidmah cannot be
guessed. Khidmah is like a secret, it is like planting
something that, later, it will bear fruit. Everything