lecturer. This is an important part because you have
to be able to trigger your students to be able to pour
out their emotion about the story that they are going
to perform. Here, they were asked to revisit their
past and try to remember about their feeling and the
situation at that time. After 2 or 3 sessions of
individual practice, you can ask your students to
read their monologue in a small group which consist
of 2 or 3 students. It is better if your students could
choose the members of the group, so they can feel
relax and comfortable, knowing that they are going
to share their story to people that they close to. The
next step is to prepare the video of their monologue.
For some students, it is very difficult to act in front
of camera, but for some others, it is beneficial,
because they are really afraid to act in front of many
people. After they recorded their monologue
performance, the next step is to share their video to
their friends. Here the students were asked to
comment about their friends’ performance and find
anyone who has the same problems or past
experiences. During and after the process, the
students were asked to answer a survey regarding
the process of making and performing monologue.
All 42 students who took part in the course were
participating in the survey and the discussion is
going to revolved around the participants answers
and will be analyzed via Pendzik’s dramatic reality
theory (2006). When the 42 students were being
asked which process that they prefer between the
scriptwriting, rehearsing, and performing, 27
students stated that they prefer the scriptwriting
process, 10 students prefer the actual performance,
while 5 people prefer the rehearsing process. These
responses may reveal that in the process doing
monologue, the actual performance may not be the
one that matter the most for the students as they
consider the process before the actual performance
to be as important if not more for them. The
discussion will start off with how the students
perceived their experience during those three
processes and what are the meanings of those
processes form them.
3.1 The Meaning of Doing Monologue
The first question on the survey that was asked to
the students is regarding their general
impression/experience during the whole process of
scriptwriting, individual rehearsing, and performing
the monologue. There are three common threads
that are acquired about what doing monologue
means for the students based on their answers for
the first question which could be categorized as new
experience, vehicle of expression and reflection, as
well as personal improvement.
The first one to be discussed is monologue as
new experience for the students. For all the students
who were participating in the course, it was actually
their first time in doing monologue performance that
include the three parts process of scriptwriting,
rehearsing, and performing. As such, doing
monologue for the first time brings both positive
and negative impression on them. Based on the
students’ answers, in general the majority of them
actually gave a positive response to the whole
process and described the whole experience as
either interesting, happy, fun, or enjoyable. They
felt that way mainly because the whole process
provides them with different experience compared
to the other courses that they took as it is focused
mainly on practice and creating stories based on
their own experience which is something that they
generally like. However, at the same time some
majority of the students also describe their first
experience of doing monologue as confusing,
challenging, and difficult. The difficult and
confusing parts are mainly due to their inability to
express themselves through performance as they are
not used to perform in front of other students that
resulted in anxiety and nervousness for some of the
students especially in the performance and rehearsal
parts. Furthermore, since the whole process was
conducted online, some find the process to be
difficult since they have to repeatedly record their
performance in front of camera especially during the
individual rehearsal. Meanwhile, others also feel
confused in the scriptwriting process since it is
difficult for them to choose the topic to be
performed since the topic has to be based on their
personal experience which some of them feel
hesitant to share with others. However, in the end all
students are able to choose topics/experiences that
they feel comfortable to be performed to others.
Such responses, both the positive and the negative,
show how monologue as new experience has at least
provided the students with experience that both
intriguing and challenging for them in both
cognitive and affective level that they never done
before.
The second common threads about the
meaning of monologue that will be discussed is
monologue as vehicle of expression and reflection.
Based on the students’ answers, doing monologue
actually provided them with a unique opportunity to
explore and express the experience that they never
thought could be expressed through dramatic
performance. In the course, the students are